I felt I was crazy having similar feelings after losing (at 62) my first cat last year at just three years old after he was run over and killed instantly. Utterly overwhelming grief many times worse than losing many best friends/both parents/my baby son. Completely irrational, but there it is...These are the saddest of bereavements. I would rather bury 12 family members rather than 1 cat.
Now that's a DIY cat, complete with O-scope and caps. Love it!My son's cat Moby, by the way he is a fan of cables, cable ties and bushings.